As a kid, I didn’t really care about God. My parents didn’t take me to church or put any pressure on me to believe in what they believed in. My parents just taught me how to be a good human being. They would say “treat others the way they wanted to be treated” or “you’re a leader, not a follower”. On Sundays, my Mom would play gossip music so, I knew who God was. I just didn’t know why I had to believe in someone I have never met. Why do I worship someone that doesn’t do anything for me? Why do my parents talk so much about this irrelevant man? These were the questions I would think of every time I thought of God. 

As I got a little older I started to get into manifesting and believing in the universe. I started buying crystals and started watching youtube videos on meditation. The manifestation was really important to me. I would get everything I wanted out of life with just manifesting. I started with small things like safe flights or money. Then I started to get into the big stuff like manifesting love and happiness. It really started to work and I even started to tell my Mom about it. My mom asked me “Who are you manifesting to” and I replied, “The Universe” she then asked me “Do you know who made the universe”. I respond “No”. She said, “God created everything in this world, so when you’re manifesting to the Universe your really just speaking to God”. That really stuck with me. 

I really started to get into God and who he was and why he was so important to me. I would read the bible and every time I would manifest I would use the Lord’s name. I started identifying myself as a Christain. I would watch online church every Sunday. One day I got a text from my Dad saying that my Aunt Dean died. I started questioning “Why do we die?” and “Why do bad things happen to good people?”. I started to get very angry and wonder why I was devoting my time to someone who takes people away from everyone. This really taunted me for a few months. I started to fear God and just try not to do anything bad or I would die and be sent to hell.

I then just started researching and realized everyone is going to die one day and there is nothing gonna change that. It’s really how you live your life and be just a nice person. So to answer the question “What do I believe?” the answer is I don’t believe in any Gods anymore. I believe that you should live life with no fear and to take all the opportunities that you are given. Because you only get one life and you should live it right.